be anything but quiet

jc and i are taking a break
i'm fine so far
she's not
i just need to be myself for a while

so far i haven't missed any classes
good for me.

I got a samsung gravity 2 and it is beautiful and I love it. internet, gps, the whole shebang. Its hot. And only eighty bucks, a fifty dollar rebate, split up over four months. I likee. right now im at the pac trying to learn how to program lights but I dont really understand it.

You know how sometimes people on your friends' list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? since when?" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out. :)

1. First name: Lynne. a long time ago i used to go by lydia and it was my lj name. not really anymore though.

2. Age: twenty

3. Location: Seattle, WA. i loooove it

4. Occupation: Merchandiser at Prologix at Sea-tac International Airport. this means i work at all the hudson newsstands and booksellers restocking books and magazines. it's dull and not my favorite but it pays. i also currently work at carco theatre as a house manager, which means during rentals i am the contact between the space and the renter. it pays very well but it's intermittent. i'm looking for a part-time to full-time job, preferably with benefits. i would love to work at starbucks and i've put in several applications at different places that i'm waiting to hear back from.

5. Partner?: JC. she is my soulmate. we've been together a year last month and we plan on having a ceremony next summer when alex is home. yes, she is a girl. yes, this is a first for me. she lives at home with my family which is a bit awkward sometimes but works out a lot better than you'd expect. yes, it caused a looooot of drama when it was first revealed to the general public about five months ago. i left my old church (obviously) and the pastor called a meeting with my family and they haven't been back to church since either.

6. Kids: none. currently not planning on having any. may change in the future but i personally don't want to bring a child into this current environment, especially when his/her parents aren't allowed to get married.

7. Brothers/Sisters: aaron, 35. works at boeing and lives in monroe. single (much to his chagrin). has two kitties. plays warcraft and has lots of money and loooves technology. his newest hobby is photography so he bought a nikon d300 and five thousand dollars worth of lenses and stuff. he's crazy.

alex, 19. it's been his life dream to go to the air force academy and fly f-18s his entire life, and he made it. he made it through basic and the first three weeks of school and now we're in colorado springs for parents' weekend. i'm very proud of him and i miss him so much. we're really close - sometimes he drives me up the wall but i really care about him.

abigail, 14. she is tall and skinny and beautiful and could be a model. there has been some tension between us in the past because she was going through puberty and dealing with hormones and she can be truly cruel sometimes (my weight is a favorite topic, seeing as she weighs 100 lbs soaking wet), but she's gotten better. she likes transformers and fanfic.

molly, 11. she wants me to say that she's twelve but i cannot tell a lie. she is extremely hyper and a bit spoiled, as per her role as the baby of the family, but not too bad. she also is a big fan of transformers and loves to play the sims.

8. Pets: annie, a three-yr-old border collie. she is adorable and so smart. i love her. our last kitty died but i wasn't very fond of it. we also have a box turtle named mrs. t we found on the street more than ten years ago and she is probably about 50 and will live to be 100. epic.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
a) my mental health. i've been diagnosed with depression for two years. i used to take lexapro and now i am on 150mg of the generic effexor. it works pretty well and i feel pretty good but when i don't take a pill for twenty-four hours i start to withdraw really bad. i see a counselor, tracy, twice a month, and she has a dog named watson and i love him. things have been a lot better this summer but it was bad this spring. i took a quarter off school and was basically suicidal. it was bad. things are a lot better now.
b) going back to school. i transferred to south from highline for winter quarter, took spring off, and am now going back to highline for fall. i'm taking geologic catastrophes, geography, and total fitness (working out 3x/wk). i'm excited and looking forward to it. i think it'll be good. registering and taking the compass and everything stresses me out (i scored 59 on pre-algebra and you need 60 to take basically any science classes, so i've been trying to work around that
3. acting. i've been performing for eleven years. i mainly work with a youth theatre group in burien called the hi-liners - i've done something like ten shows with them. right now i'm in thoroughly modern millie (i'm playing gloria) which opens on saturday. after this i'm hoping to be more involved on the production side of things. i've also worked with the renton summer teen musical. i just got cast in a show at burien little theatre called christmas with the crawfords which is a musical comedy, and i'm playing three characters. i love acting and performing but i don't know if it's practical to consider it my future. i don't know what i want to do with myself right now.

10. Parents?: still together! 25 years! i love my parents. they work so hard and have sacrificed so much for all of us. i'm honored to be their daughter.

11. Who are some of your closest friends?: JC. Brooke. Katt. i don't really have any close friends. it's kind of depressing and i need to work on that, but i don't know how.

so yeah that's that! i got a nasty cold but otherwise colorado is fine. goodtimes. we're leaving to take alex back to the academy soon. the weekend's been tiring, and i won't get decent sleep til after tech tomorrow. oh well.

we renewed our tmobile contract and we're all eligible for upgrades so i think i'm getting a sidekick, it has everything i want and only 75 bucks for the old one. not bad.

oh and weezer last night was AMAZING.

today was a very mediocre day
meaning it definitely wasn't a great day but it wasn't horrible enough to be a bad day
i don't like it when no one pays any attention to me/the only attention given to me is negative attention/i'm taken for granted
probably fairly spoiled and self-centered
but that's how i feel
*sigh*

what kind of stupid-ass question is this?

apparently my fever and violent throwing up is just a very unfortunate and (i'm assuming) rare reaction to my antibiotic.
THAT IS UPSETTING!
in other news, from when i went to the doctor on friday to when i went today (monday), i'd dropped eight pounds. however that was because i kept down approximately 50 calories from 5pm saturday to 2:30pm on monday, and those 50 calories consisted of saltine crackers.
nice to know that it is theoretically possible for me to lose weight, i just have to starve to death to do it.
i'd rather be fat, honestly.

i feel like crap
i think i have a UTI and a sinus infection
i'm going to the doctor tomorrow
JUST FYI COS I KNOW Y'ALL WANT TO KNOW

yuck.

come to Millie-related functions:

Fundraiser
Southcenter Claim Jumper
Wednesday August 19, 5-10pm
what you have to do: print out flier, bring in, eat food, and 15% of the proceeds come to US!
facebook event AND FLIER - http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=110441378327&ref=mf

good old-fashioned CAR WASH!
Saturday, August 22
8am-1pm
North Hill Espresso
1st Ave S and S 208th
(20738 1st Ave S.
Des Moines, WA 98198)

and last but not least, PERFORMANCES!
Preview Performances
Sept. 12 - 7:30pm Renton Carco Theatre
Sept. 13 - 1:30pm Renton Carco Theatre
Main Performances
Sept. 19 - 7:30pm Highline PAC
Sept. 20 - 1:30pm Highline PAC
Sept. 26 - 7:30pm Highline PAC
Sept. 27 - 1:30pm Highline PAC

Ticket prices:
Renton Carco: (Preview Performances)
$12 all ages, all seats

Performing Arts Center:
Preferred Premium section - $25
Adults - $18
Students/Seniors - $15
Children 12 and under - $12

Introducing, our best discount ticket offer ever... Millie Madness Pricing!
Purchase 4 or more tickets and receive $2.5 off per ticket
Purchase 8 or more tickets and receive $5 off per ticket
Purchase 12 or more tickets and receive $7.5 off per ticket
Purchase 20 or more tickets and receive $10 off per ticket

Family 4-Pack Pricing:
Four tickets (any four people count as a family!) for $50!
(discount pricing valid for Highline Performing Arts Center performances only)
www.hi-liners.org
as always, credit me for the tickets so I get prizes and money and comps and all that fun stuff
official facebook event - http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=107143298801&ref=mf

ADD HI-LINERS ON FACEBOOK - http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1797971365&ref=ts

woohoo

highline and your some-courses-are-now-common-course-numbering-and-some-aren't
you suck
also not changing your aa planning sheet to utilize common course numbering
you suck
because figuring out what i still need to take ISN'T DIFFICULT ENOUGH ALREADY

i am going to try night classes
i think i am going to do music cultures of the world, geology, communication, or writing 102 (or 105, whatever the hell it is in CCN) or something like that
it's a bit dumb because i think there is some mistakes in their online pdf file
at least, it doesn't make sense to me that asian-american studies is in their diversity and global studies department and yet doesn't have the diversity and globalism symbol next to it
DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?
NO



PSYCH 131 SUICIDE INTERVENTION 1 cr
Graded “pass/fail.”

ROFL

who's sick of this show?
ME!

millie is fun
i'm playing one of millie's friends, gloria.
unfortunately i get to be in all of one number
which is the "not for the life of me tag"
and it's like thirty seconds
oh well
my part is pretty awesome

i realized today that i turn 21 in less than three months
so freaking awesome! that makes me excited

what doesn't make me excited is being kind of broke
oh well
i'm house managing next week and now i'm working at the airport two nights a week so i will have a bit of money coming in
i supposedly got a new job at the days inn but they haven't called me about training like they said they would
so i don't know if it's actually going to happen. whatevs

tech tech tech.
tech is a whole lot more interesting as a techie than as an actor.
it's almost exciting, as a matter of fact.
plus i get to wear a headset and make snarky comments, so that's fun.
and the headset means i pay far less attention to the children than i did before which makes me happy.

i'm going to be stepping in and playing a role in millie because someone dropped out.
that will be fun.
i'm excited for that.

my car's brakes are out and i can't get it fixed til next week (there was an initial shock when i thought it would cost $850, but scott says he can do it for $300, thank god)
i killed both the van and alex's car yesterday, leaving me with no transportation.
i was laid off on monday with absolutely no advance notice. just, peace out.
so in celebration, today i watched four episodes of lost and the movie goldeneye while drinking jager and coke and typing up line notes from footloose (which took four hours, which should tell you something about how the show is going).
there's something incredibly cruelly ironic about my life right now.

get my hairs cut.
i just got a pixie again finally and it feels sooooooooooo good.
i missed it so much.

i don't know what my first word was but my first sentence was "Go Joe!"
i learned this from watching my mom scream at Joe Montana during Monday Night Football.
she would do all the laundry over the week and then set up the ironing board in the living room and iron while watching football.
i was the coolest baby ever.

side note: joe montana's son is playing for UW! i think that's cool.

in other news:
+zanna, don't! was the best thing ever and i highly recommend it
+JC and i dyed our hairs and i am now a reddish-brunette and she is a mohawked redhead. she looks like the long-lost punk androgynous Randall sibling

in honor of alex being gone i am wearing his clothes.
actually it's not so much in honor as much as it is i have no time to do laundry and he's not here to yell at me.
i am writing him a letter right now.

first pride parade yesterday
jc was periodically finding a trash can to throw up into so we left after a couple hours but we saw the most important things - dykes on bikes and nude bicyclists and people in body paint.
although i'm not really sure what the correlation is between gay and naked, i mean, when i realized i liked jc i didn't get a sudden urge to shed my clothes, but, whatevs.
and, just a side note to the president who's hanging out in my icon: separate but equal didn't really seem to work for you, buddy, so why should it be okay for gay people?

i'm converting to hasidic judaism.
JUST KIDDING.

did you know that in britain's census directly following the release of "Star Wars," so many people listed "Jedi Knight" as their religion that the census-takers had to create another category?
now you do.

i know you're excited! it's inspired by the john tenniel illustrations of the mad hatter in alice in wonderland. the exact illustration has a lot of hatchmarks and tiny details that neither i or the artist thought would translate well, so he drew something up.

( off with his head! he's murdering the time! )

i haven't uploaded new icons in eight million years
and since i have a permanent account i get space for two new icons every month
so now i can have up to 198 icons (!!)
that is soooooo many
i went nuts over at fooish_icons tonight and uploaded fifty or so new ones but i still have space for 12
awesome icon-makers, anyone?

198 is a CRAPLOAD of icons. that's all i can say.
jc just found out a) that i have a permanent account and b) how much i PAID for it and she is shocked.

i'm going to register for classes at south for fall quarter even though i don't know my work/show schedule yet
i will have to leave sip n' shine or move to a different shift or something cos i'm not going to try to do morning classes and get to seatac by noon
and if i just plan on south then i don't have to go through transferring again

right now i'm planning on yoga (pec 136 3914.44) tues 12-1.50
english 102 0064.05 MWF 12:00PM-01:20PM
and speech/communication 0193.03 DAILY 11:00AM-11:50AM

i think that looks like a pretty good schedule for me
leaving the evenings/weekends open for rehearsal or work

i think to finish my aa i need english 102, communication, two "natural world" classes one of which needs to be a lab, possibly a global cultures credit, and i think another humanities, like a history. six classes total at the most since my asian-american class and rock music might count as global cultures.

anyway, i'm going to finish my aa this year and then look into real school.

yes.
that doesn't mean i don't believe in polyamory, sure, i believe that maybe some people are physically not set up to be with only one person and it's better for them to be with two or three or whatever people, but that's not me. i try to be a simple person. i am confusing and a bit messed up, but i try to be a simple person, and for me, dating two people would be the opposite of simple. dating ONE person is the opposite of simple sometimes, i could not even imagine the stress of trying to date two.

that's just my two cents.
in other news, HAI LIVEJOURNAL!
i am in an outrageously good mood.

power rangers: lost in space. OBVIOUSLY.

todays been pretty darn good
fell asleep really early last night, i think around ten
woke up at 8:30 completely refreshed
cleaned a lot of stuff in my room including making my bed, putting away my mountain of clothes, starting laundry, even sorting through the old programs that were threatening to eat my bookshelf
and now i'm at work and i've rang 52 bucks! the most i've rang before today was 36! yeahhhh boi!
oh and a hot guy gave me his number! yes i know i'm taken, but still, what a great self-esteem boost
i'm not even wearing makeup and my hair looks like a scarecrow's
and i changed my moodtheme cos it's not winter anymore
pretty freaking good day man